It looks like instead of having God make it easy for me by leaving me with one option on the call front, I may have choices to make. Sigh.
I think the reason this fills me with such dread is that it means I will have to tell one or possibly two organizations "no."
I've hated hearing that word in my own life, so I hate having to say it.
The tough thing about all this is that the options all are mostly wonderful, and all have some very small negatives. They are all different. I can visualize myself in any of them, doing good work. It is not obvious to me that one is a better fit, or that I feel more called to one than the other, or that my motivations for being attracted to one or the other are not good ones.
If you're offered a gorgeous red apple, an aromatic and luscious peach, and a bowl of beautiful cherries, which do you choose if you are forced to choose one? And how do you let go of the guilt of not choosing the other two?
Prayers for discernment, please.